"In this never-ending circle, I've been sheltering a Dream.."

Don't know what's wrong today. I thought I was fine.. thought I was fine..Got to school and then, I don't know. I got Morgan to sign off on my Social studies class next year, started walking down the hallway.. I started shaking and I've felt sick ever since. I left during my Study hall, I was with mommy Farman at the time. I think she could tell something was wrong, because she was kinda obvious at trying to cheer me up. She started talking to me about my birthday, and asked me if I wanted to go out to dinner with her that Friday. Last time we went out to dinner we went to this Indian restaurant called Shalimar on Hurstbourne LN. I love being with her, she makes me happy. I can always smile for her.. except for today. Today I didn't feel like it was physically possible to smile for some reason.If Michael'd talked to me, I would've tried to smile too, but .. I don't think I could've.Eden has no Valentine for Valentine's day. Eden has absolutely no plans this weekend. *sigh* I think that hurts more than anything else. That makes the third year in a row.So French club is tomorrow, and I decided to buy everyone things to make Mardi Gras masks (I'm president of the French club, for those who didn't know), and so that may be fun. Farman told me Max's taking pictures, I guess I'm gonna have to try to look somewhat nice.. lol. NAHS is having their yearbook photo taken tomorrow during French club..and.. that's bad. I asked Alford about when she thought it would be, and she said to ask Mrs. Kandle. That was the last thing I wanted to do this morning.I wore my glasses today for the first time in a while. I never wear them because I don't think they look good on me, they just happened to match what I was wearing today. My left eye's kind of lazy, so I if I just look through that eye, everything's all fuzzy. My right eye's good enough to see for both, so I don't think I need my glasses but supposedly if I wear them long enough my eye's supposed to get better.Now what to do the rest of the day .. Hrm.. lay around, perhaps?