o/' "But when I dance, 'Je T'Aime Encore..'" .. o/'

I think I'm a little better than I was earlier. I just went to sleep for about 3 hours. I like to do that when I don't want to face the world. Sleep. I've been messing around with my new little sad doll. Poor little girl. I want to make her tears go away. Hug her close and say "It's okay, don't cry." At the same time I want to draw her and capture her feeling.. but, inanimate objects don't have feelings, do they? If I draw something sad, I feel sad myself. If I draw something happy, then I'm happy. I feel like drawing my little sad doll.I haven't taken my medication in a long time. I wash it down the sink. Recently I've been having panic attacks again. I still don't want my medicine. I think I'd rather feel myself freak out than feel a false happiness in the pit of my stomach.Hrm.. I have nothing to do. I might go draw for a little while since I finally have some time for art, and no one to see or to talk to..