Je t'attend .. Je t'attend .. Mais .. il me blesse..

Wow. I'm in pain today.I shouldn't have gone to school. I really shouldn't have. I'm still extrememly sickly. I was originally planning on leaving at the beginning of second period, but I didn't, in the hope that the day would get better.What a mistake.I just kept feeling worse.. worse.. I kept thinking "The day will be fine once you make it to lunch, you'll be happy." But when lunch came, I wasn't happy. Something almost made me puke. It wasn't food. I went through 8th period extremely sick to my stomach. Now I'm just trying not to think about it.French club was no fun. Hardly anyone came. And we made Valentines. That just sealed the deal, I think. A final blow on this day of unhappy things.I feel like I could pass out. I hate myself sometimes.Today is another one of those days where I wonder about what the world would be like if I weren't here.. if anyone would honestly care if quiet and out-of-the-way Eden just wasn't in the picture.My head's spinning so much, I wonder just how close I am to insanity.