o/' "But when I dance, 'Je T'Aime Encore..'" .. o/'

I think I'm a little better than I was earlier. I just went to sleep for about 3 hours. I like to do that when I don't want to face the world. Sleep. I've been messing around with my new little sad doll. Poor little girl. I want to make her tears go away. Hug her close and say "It's okay, don't cry." At the same time I want to draw her and capture her feeling.. but, inanimate objects don't have feelings, do they? If I draw something sad, I feel sad myself. If I draw something happy, then I'm happy. I feel like drawing my little sad doll.I haven't taken my medication in a long time. I wash it down the sink. Recently I've been having panic attacks again. I still don't want my medicine. I think I'd rather feel myself freak out than feel a false happiness in the pit of my stomach.Hrm.. I have nothing to do. I might go draw for a little while since I finally have some time for art, and no one to see or to talk to..

Wee! Wee! Il est arrivé!

Yes! Finally! This morning I received my email from my host family in Macon, France. This is so cool! :D I'll post what she said, and then write out the translation for those of you who aren't cool and don't speak French. ;) j/k.Bonjour!Voilà, Je suis Charlotte et c'est donc chez moi que tu vas séjourner quelques jours en juin. Je ne pense pas que tu as reçu ma fiche, mais ça devrait bientôt arriver. Je suis desolé de ne pas t'écrire en Anglais, mais j'ai peur que tu ne me comprennes pas ... donc en attendant, que tu reçois ma fiche, je vais te parler un peu de moi. J'ai 15 ans mais quand tu viendras, j'en aurais bientôt 16 ans puisque je suis née en Juillet. Comme toi, j'ai 2 chats que j'adore - ils s'appellent Kidou et Capucine. J'ai aussi un frère qui s'apelle Lambert et qui a 17 ans. En ce qui concerne mes goûts, j'adore vraiment la danse et j'aime aussi beaucoup la photographie. J'aime assez nager. En musique, je n'ai pas de chanteur ou groupe péféré, mais j'aime bien Muse, Saez, No Doubt, Eminem ... Sur ta fiche il y a écrit que tu aimais bien "hiking" - qu'est-ce que c'est? Sur ce je te laisse.A trés bientôt,Charlotte Aww, she's so cute. :) Here's the translation, for the Français-imapaired:Hello!So, I'm Charlotte and it's at my house that you will be vacationing for some time in June. I don't think that you've received my paper, but it should arrive soon. I'm sorry to not write to you in English, but I'm worried that you wouldn't understand me ... so in the meantime, while you're waiting on my paper, I'll tell you a bit about myself. I'm 15, but when you come, I'll be near 16 since I was born in July. Like you, I have 2 cats whom I adore - Their names are Kidou and Capucine. I also have a brother named Lambert, and who's 17. Concerning my hobbies, I really like dance and I also really like photography. I also rather like to swim. In music, I don't have a favorite singer or band, but I do like Muse, Saez, No Doubt, Eminem ... On your paper you wrote that you like "hiking" - what's that? I guess I'll let you go.Talk to you soon,CharlotteWee <3 I can't wait to tell Sarah I'm gonna be staying with a No Doubt freak. I also can't wait to write her back, but I don't think I will until I receive her paper she filled out. Yay.

Oh.. hay..... ou.... *snore*

zZzZzZzM yeyes are crusty.I got no shleep;.I'll inject myself with some caffiene in a lit tle while so I can be awake for schol >:(And also alter later because I don't wanna fall asleep on Mike during the moviebut would that be such a bid thing/ i just wouldn't get to see the movie.byeeeeeeeeeezZz

Eeeh .. j'ai sommeil x_X

I've been working on homework since around 5:00 pm.Doesn't look like I'll be done before school starts.Damn Visual Arts magnet.But, the world has changed tonight. Eden has learned to sew using a sewing machine.Beware world, for many plushie toys can now be made as such the world has never seen.Mwahahahaha.*Squeaks toy jellyfish*

A Cruel Mind

What's the worst dream that you can have before you wake up for school?A Dream that today's a snow day.Damn my cruel mind.