Okay, I give up.

I can't do anything right today. I give up. I try to go downstairs and play DDR to get some of these feelings in check, and what happens but the first song I dance to, I fall and at least twist my ankle.I give up. I'm just going to go cry, I think.

Je t'attend .. Je t'attend .. Mais .. il me blesse..

Wow. I'm in pain today.I shouldn't have gone to school. I really shouldn't have. I'm still extrememly sickly. I was originally planning on leaving at the beginning of second period, but I didn't, in the hope that the day would get better.What a mistake.I just kept feeling worse.. worse.. I kept thinking "The day will be fine once you make it to lunch, you'll be happy." But when lunch came, I wasn't happy. Something almost made me puke. It wasn't food. I went through 8th period extremely sick to my stomach. Now I'm just trying not to think about it.French club was no fun. Hardly anyone came. And we made Valentines. That just sealed the deal, I think. A final blow on this day of unhappy things.I feel like I could pass out. I hate myself sometimes.Today is another one of those days where I wonder about what the world would be like if I weren't here.. if anyone would honestly care if quiet and out-of-the-way Eden just wasn't in the picture.My head's spinning so much, I wonder just how close I am to insanity.

Buki-Buki Payo!

Yeah .. so.. I got soooo sick last night after Michael and I got off the phone (around 10:00). I laid there in bed until around 12:30, and it seemed like I just kept getting sicker and sicker, until it got to the point where it hurt my muscles to sit up or move around, and my body was very hot but I had like 4 blankets on me and couldn't seem to get warm. I was so cold my teeth were chattering.When I woke up this morning, it's like it's all gone. I'm just a little sick to my stomach, feel like I have a miniscule fever, and have this wierd feeling that I'm so weak I can't even pick up a piece of paper. It's like I'm straining my arms to type now. It's just wierd. I hope everything goes okay today.

Nyaahhhh...

Nyahhh.. I'm still so sickkk... I don't know what's wrong.We have no thermometers in this house.But I have to go to school tomorrow. There's too many things I have to take care of, on the school level and the personal level.Blah. *sniffle, hack, cough*

Sucre, Au chocolat, Au pommes, Au Glace, Au fruits ...

I wish I were back in France, oh yes oh yes..I am in serious need of some Crêpes and Chocolat chaud (kind of like hot chocolate only 50x better) ..yumm....But I must wait 107 more days .. *SIGH*

"C'est la Vie, I wanna be the best me I can be..!"

Wow.I went to Therapy today.. and.. I must say I was reluctant to go. A lot of stuff's happened in the past 2 weeks, and being sick in a few different ways, naturally I was not wanting to talk much.But.. I'm glad I went. It helped, a lot. I had a lot of things I needed help understanding.I'm actually happy, I think, despite my coughing and hacking.

Joyful Sleep-time

lol, Seems I can't even get away from some things while I sleep - I just end up dreaming about them!Oh well. :) At least I'm happy in my sleep.